so I’m just going to be really honest

so I’m just going to be rally honest in this post i decided.

I have gained a lot of weight.  LIke, probably not a super noticeable type of “a lot”, as in people still call me little and cute and stuff, but the kind of “a lot” where I know that it has happened and that I hate it and that I’m sad.

I just feel really out of control.  and i keep making excuses.

I don’t want it to be this way.  I still want to lose the weight by summer.  To be blatantly honest, I want to be hot.  I know, I know, I’m a smart girl and I shouldn’t succumb to the horrible fascist misogynist stereotypes of women! But I’m admitting it.  I want to be hot.  There, I said it, it’s out there.  I want to look good in bitty shorts and a tank top and I want to wear a bikini and deserve it.

New topic:  bullying on social media.

This week, there has been a ton of “twama” in my community of “friends”.  and by twama i mean twitter-drama.

What are your thoughts?  I mean, if they’re talking about you, at least it means you’re relevant, ya know?  LIke seriously, it means that they took all the energy of getting out their phone, talking with their friends, deciding you were THAT worthy that you deserved to be tweeted about.  seriously?  like, who could honestly get offended, because if just means they’re obsessed.  and there’s a lot of obsession going on lately.

cue mariah carey:

“girl why you so obsessed with me, I just wanna know”

Anyways, long day, and crappy dinner.  and by dinner i mean two dinners plus dessert.

I need to get a handle on things.  I will.  Comeback Kid returns.

 

 

DAY SALVAGED!

HELLOOOOOOOO WORLD!

 

I went on a 50 minute run!  Don’t you love it when you can save your day?(:

 

Xox,

S

Advice!

I’m only on day two and I’ve already sucked.  A ton.

How are you guys doing?  I feel really disappointed.  But I can’t let this get me down!  Just to keep myself accountable, I’ll write down what I ate as promised.

 

B:

2 bowls of organic cornflakes with rice milk and a banana

1 piece of peanut butter, whole wheat toast

 

L:

1c Japanese Rice Crackers

 

Snack:

1 bowl organic cornflakes with rice milk and a banana

 

D:

A large salad with homemade vegan dressing

1 PBJ on whole wheat bread

 

Workout?  Just a 20 minute run!  I hope to fit more in though–if I do, I’ll let you all know!

 

xox,

S

Wednesday’s Woes:

Breakfast:

1 banana with 1 medium sized bowl Brown Rice Puff Cereal with Rice Milk

 

Lunch:

1 large salad with homemade vegan dressing

1 apple

1 mandarine

Afternoon snack:

1 cup rice crackers

1 Orange

Dinner:

1.5 Cups Brown Rice

1 Cup Refried Beans

1/4 Baguette

1/2 Banana

 

Dessert:

2 bowls whole wheat chex cereal with rice milk

1 cup diced pineapple

 

Workout:

4 mile run

20 minutes abs

60 minute ballet class

My day would have been great without the after dinner snack/dessert.  I don’t know why i ate it, I wasn’t even hungry! Don’t you hate that? The most important thing is that we are honest with ourselves and write it down even when we don’t want to.  My run was great today– its reminded me of how even when we don’t feel like doing something, sometimes we just HAVE to get out there and do it before we can convince ourselves otherwise!

ON a non fitness note:

I sassed this girl back at school today. and it felt great! I am really  just tired of people talking to me rudely, and as weird as this is, girls respect you more when you respond with harshness if they are harsh.  anyone else have experience with this?

 

 

Drop 10-ers, how was your day?

xox,

S

Happy Wednesday!

Let’s pretend this is a fresh week! (technically it is, since our Drop 10 weeks end on tuesdays with a weigh in)

 

That means we are starting FRESH todaY!  so forget about your mess ups last night, eat a healthy breakfast, and get going!

 

xox,

S

JOIN THE DROP 10 CLUB!

WHO HERE WANTS TO DROP 10 POUNDS BY SUMMER?

 

I think we can do it.  Here’s how many days are left until June 1st:  

 

66!  That means that we have to lose .15151515(…) pounds per day.  Sounds easy enough? Right?

I know from experience that losing weight is not as easy as it sounds, but i really believe that if we give ourselves small goals at a time, anything is possible!  

66 days makes about 9.4 weeks, which means we have to lose about 1.06 pounds per week.  WHO’S IN?  To lose this much every week, we have to have a calorie deficit of around 530 calories a day.  To calculate a deficit, take your BMR (http://www.bmi-calculator.net/bmr-calculator/ … your BMR will appear in a little green bar above the area where you put your numbers in the equation after you hi ‘calculate’.

Your BMR is how many calories you need without any activity.  

Count your calories daily and then subtract your BMR and your exercise calories (calories you burned) from your daily intake and this will tell you how much of a deficit you have!  Don’t be afraid to have a bigger deficit than 530, but don’t go under 530 unless you don’t want to lose 10!

 

Okay, y’all.  NOw that we know just how to do this, there’s no excuses!

 

I’ll be writing down all my meals (which will be vegan, FYI), so feel free to steal any ideas or share some of your own! 

WE CAN DO THIS!  

Every Tuesday, we’ll do a weigh in where we post how much weight we’ve lost from the previous week.  Sound good?

 

I can’t wait for us to be feeling AH-MAZING come June first!!

 

Who’s in?

 

The Joys of Juicing

So I have been doing some reading on juicing, and have found tons of evidence that it is a great way to detox and lose a few pounds.  I was convinced to do a juice fast this weekend, but then I woke up and ate a huge breakfast:(  but that won’t stop me!  I’m going to try to water fast for the rest of the day and then start tomorrow on a two day juice fast.  What do you guys think?  I think I’m ready for the challenge, because I have been eating pretty raw for a few weeks.  I don’t think Ive told you yet, but I became a no-sugar vegan!  I haven’t’ eaten processed sugar or animal products in nearly a month!!  I feel great.  I have been really getting into swimming which is a great workout to get lean, but on the down side it definitely increases appetite:/  anyways, any thoughts on juicing? love you all!

 

S

I did it!!!

Hi lovelies! So sorry i haven’t blogged in a while–ive been so busy with living(:  anyways, I DID IT!!!!  I finished my 60 DAY BIRKAM YOGA CHALLENGE!  It wasn’t as hard as i thought it would be, and I feel great(: i didnt lose as much weight as i thought i would (only a wavering 5 pounds), but i can definintely see some more definition and i feel great(: i am so ready to keep it up and have a great bikini bod for this summer! or even for spring break(:  so, a little bit about hte lvoe life:  there’s this guy.  oh jeez, don;t they always start that way? anyways, theres this guy that i really like, hes funny, cute, talkative, and even writes silly little poems.  not to mention being athletic and a total family man.  however, he’s sort of taken. well, not exactly taken, but there’s this:  for christmas, a group i belong to did “special deliveries” as a fundraiser, and i was the delivery girl who delivered the items people bought to their recipients.  well, i had to deliver a wonderful christmas surprise from this guy… to another girl.  it was such a classic, rom-com, mushy gooshy, sad, how is this happening to me?, this would happen to me moment.  Wow.  anyways, things are going great other than that.  Im applying for some internships in new york city this summer and i cant wait to see how it all pans out! also, I’ve got a GREAT artist for you guys to check out!  I just discovered him on the interenet, and he’s on itunes too.  DAVID BOONE.  two words.  ahhhhh-mazing!  i especially love his songs Butterfly and Drifter.  look it up and tell me what you think! 

 

XOX,

S

update!

i have been doing great so far! i have keeps up with my 60 bikram yoga challenge (6 days on a week for 60 days) and have also been really staying in touch with my eating.  my next weigh in will be friday… nervous, but excited!

i read a really inspiring quote today, by Steve Jobs

“Here’s to the crazy ones. The misfits. The rebels. The troublemakers. The round pegs in the square holes. The ones who see things differently. They’re not fond of rules. And they have no respect for the status quo. You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them. About the only thing you can’t do is ignore them. Because they change things. They push the human race forward. And while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius. Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do.”

I might be moving out to LA this summer to start my acting career..

thanks for the inspiration Mr. JObs!

also,, been loving my salads this week! my favorite dressing is currently “miracle sauce”.

its a homemade dressing of olive oil, garlic, lemon, honey, brewers yeast, and a few secret ingredients that i don’t know because my dad makes it and gives it to me… its delicious i promise(:

the organic pumpkin i carved:

“the shameless poise of naked branches…”

and thats fall..

i

in the Wild West.

xox,

S.

party night. oh well i love obama.

so tonight i ate. i ate pizza.

and cookies.

and licorice.

and chocolate.

and cereal.

and a pop tart.

but i don’t care! its my one complete let loose night every four years: election night.

i am so happy the whole shebang is finished… now its time to take on a challenge i have been given:

today i was challenged by one of my BEST friends to do the 60 day in a row Bikram yoga challenge.

i don’t know, I’m so nervous.  but i know i would benefit and see great results.  it just such a daunting thing to try.

your thoughts?