so I’m just going to be rally honest in this post i decided.
I have gained a lot of weight. LIke, probably not a super noticeable type of “a lot”, as in people still call me little and cute and stuff, but the kind of “a lot” where I know that it has happened and that I hate it and that I’m sad.
I just feel really out of control. and i keep making excuses.
I don’t want it to be this way. I still want to lose the weight by summer. To be blatantly honest, I want to be hot. I know, I know, I’m a smart girl and I shouldn’t succumb to the horrible fascist misogynist stereotypes of women! But I’m admitting it. I want to be hot. There, I said it, it’s out there. I want to look good in bitty shorts and a tank top and I want to wear a bikini and deserve it.
New topic: bullying on social media.
This week, there has been a ton of “twama” in my community of “friends”. and by twama i mean twitter-drama.
What are your thoughts? I mean, if they’re talking about you, at least it means you’re relevant, ya know? LIke seriously, it means that they took all the energy of getting out their phone, talking with their friends, deciding you were THAT worthy that you deserved to be tweeted about. seriously? like, who could honestly get offended, because if just means they’re obsessed. and there’s a lot of obsession going on lately.
cue mariah carey:
“girl why you so obsessed with me, I just wanna know”
Anyways, long day, and crappy dinner. and by dinner i mean two dinners plus dessert.
I need to get a handle on things. I will. Comeback Kid returns.